Of Course We Lost It

I was worried though. I thought that because we really didn't want it, we would of course get it. Luckily, not the case. Whew!

I mean it does suck. All those awesome amenities, gone. However, we are not stuck with a tiny house with a stupid small yard that needed a complete overhaul. However, we no longer have a house we could have made a ton of money off of. Where is the plus side?

Back to the drawing board. James is bummed, I am ecstatic. He has no faith will ever find a house, I can't wait to find the perfect house. One thing I did learn is I really need to lower my expectations. My dream home does not exist. I need to realize that kids play in tiny spaces (and are quite happy) all the time. I need to understand that if I bought the perfect house it would cost way too much and it would be done. My creative side would have nothing to do. I need a coloring book that hasn't been colored in. I have things that I want to do to a house and if we bought one that has everything my stuff that I love and cherish way too much would have nowhere to go. Worse, it would ruin the space by condensing it with my loved things.

So there's that. Someone else, who probably has tons of cash, gets to rip out carpet that has piss and shit on it. They get to repaint the entire place and fix all the bruises the house has from the previous wheelchair owner. They get to make a marginal profit and we get to keep hunting.